the cynical one

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

friends

It was a great weekend. A journey of self discovery and nothing was what I had planned. It was all God's plan. Friendship. That word always has a new meaning for me everyday. This weekend alone, I experienced a time zoom. Close friends from all phases of my life. The people whom we grew up together and become who we are today because of each other. Ranges from 8 years to 22 years. We talked about the past, the present and the future.

And time, become immaterial. It become so insignificant that we almost forgot how fast it went past our lives just like that.

It was great, it was indeed much to be thankful for. How we grew, how we are and how we want to be. We were there for each other during our milestones. The lows and the highs. And now what we are, journeying with each other in our phases of life.

When we looked back at our past, we saw our footsteps and those footsteps, gave me the strength to look forward to the way ahead and create more footsteps. Not just for my own, but with these people whom I can comfortably call family. Not in the sense of bloodline, but in the sense they have been around for each other and we can confidently count on one another. To share the joys. And sorrows should the need arises.

I am thankful for God whom He places His people in my life and placed me in their life too. For without them, I would never be able to see God more clearly than ever. I see my own reflection in these people. The people whom carries God lesson for me, and hopefully their own personal lessons in me also. It was indeed a huge providence. Something I have prayed and yet again, it has been answered 10 times what I had expected. In His time, in His glory at his exact and precise time.A weekend of meaning, and indeed the whole search for the meaning of life has become clearer.


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It has been an amazing 11 years since we first started off. Although it feels like we have come a long way, we are hardly halfway through. We still have a long way to go, to continue to build upon the friendship. The treasured memories and moments, boosting us into the future with strength and confidence that we have each other to count on. Even though we might have moved on with life in different directions, as a class, we too have moved on from being classmates to being a close knitted family. Family not just only involves bloodline, but the idea of just being present for each others joy and if the need arises, sorrows.

Monday, October 20, 2014

Every time there is a negative thought that flows through my mind, I am grateful that in search of His peace, I find His wisdom to bring me just enough out of the darkness. Not that I am out of the valley, but simply because my journey is not done yet. There are certain decisions I have made, but yet to be executed. Sometimes, when fear gives way to anger, it brings strength to my soul. Not because I want to be angry, but there has to be some form of fuel to burn, so that it powers up my mind and body to pull away from the darkness and into the light. Where the light leads to, I am not certain. But I know that it His grace will carry me through the journey once again.

I am where I am not because I was faithful, but because He has always been faithful.