The far side

I noticed lately that people always complain in whatever situation they are in. and at the end of the complaints, you;ll realised that they never like the position they are in and always comment on how the other side is always better. in short, "the grass is always greener on the other side"

the other side is an unreachable destination for once you think you get there, you would realised an even greener side. there is no escaping from this reality. even i fall into this trap very often. i guess, the only way to resolve this idealogy is to think about the less greener side. once you think about that, you would appreciate that you are at least on a side that is greener. its the same as how you see a glass. 'half full or half empty'.

to put it bluntly, you must experience hell to understand what is heaven. if you finally realised what;s hell, then you would definitely appreciate heaven much better. right? if you never been to hell, how would you know you are in heaven? because someone told you so? i personally don;t think so.

somtimes, i like to put myself in the less green position. i wonder how many people would actually want to put themself in that kind of situtation? does anyone find this kind of personality weird? but thats the only way i know what fortune i have. actually, i find it a journey of self discovery.

what do you think?

The working life

After leaving school, males of my age would need to serve mandatory goverment service. Now the service has been shortened to 2 years. but with good physical performances it would be just 1 year and 11 months. First year of the service was filled with training for me. Hence i;ve always been in a training sch. 3 different types of sch before we are release into the working world of the goverment service.

I was given a desk job. a job which i thought would give me good exposure to what the working life is. and i realised that it going to be sucky and very different from the school life i used to lead back in my academic education days. Bosses to please and just hope that you don;t get arrowed to do something you don;t like to do. things are no longer as carefree as days in academic sch to a certain extent. i;m also not saying that life in an academic sch here is better. it has its own set of challenges.

I learnt that one must enjoy what he is doing. even if the job is nautarally sucky. afterall, i always belive that someone has to do the job. "If not you then who? If not now then when?" It ain;t gonna be easy in a working life, but if one has a positive view of his job, which is actually a challenge, life would be more meaningful instead of griping all the time. sometimes, it just has got to be done that way. working life has far more responsibilities than a academic student. although i would say that both working life and an academic student both faces tremendous stress level in my country. but the beauty of being an academic student is that the only responsibility they have is just to simply study hard. and there are much room for them to make mistakes and learn from it. the working life doesn;t tolerate mistakes and someone has got to be blamed and to take responsibility. for a student, maybe the only enemy is time when time is always running out for them.

what do you think?

welcoming speech

Hi, this is the first entry. Let me remind myself that this is meant to be a secret journal. If you know me and managed to stumble on to this, congratualtions to you, it is your lucky day. However, if you stumble on this and you don;t know me, i hope you enjoy this.

This journal is my reflection of my thoughts. It is going to be rather complicating. No names will be mentioned, only abbreviations. I hope this is going to be useful.